Monday, March 7, 2011

Episode 18: Sylvester



Every profession has an eleventh commandment. The one thing not in the rule book but which should be adhered to. The eleventh commandment though is not sacrilegious; it can be broken, but with heavy consequences. In our trade on the streets the eleventh commandment is never to fall in love with a client. When one falls in love with a customer so many things can be compromised, affecting the main reason for being in prostitution; making money. You can not for example steal from a man you love. Not that we are out to steal, no, but sometimes, like when dealing with a mean man, it maybe necessary. You can't also negotiate steadfastly with a man you love. You are most likely to take the lowest offer or, as impossible as it may seem, give yourself up for free; after all that's what people in love do.

People break the eleventh commandment in a moment of foolishness. But for us we might break the commandment not in a moment of folly but simply because we are human beings responding to a biological urge to be loved. When a man picks me from a group of girls, it means he appreciates me. Crudely you may call it lust, but the lust is generated by an appreciation of something I have. But it ends there. Only a rare man will love a prostitute. We are seen like public institutions; open to all, to be (mis) used until we run down. We know this and so we never go out with a man expecting him to love us.

However we may fall in love with a man. After seeing the best, worst and real of so many men, many of us believe we are experts in male psychology. Thus before a girl falls in love, much analysis has taken place in her head. Nevertheless like anyone else we make mistakes.

Sometime ago I met a man called Sylvester. It says a lot if I knew his name, for many men are hesitant to give prostitutes their name, and if they do, they pick a common place name like John or Peter. Anyway Sylvester picked me one night around 11pm. He looked in his early thirties. The first thing he asked when I got inside his Subaru was whether I was feeling cold so that he could heat the car. Then he asked whether I felt hungry. Simple obvious questions but they meant a lot. As we drove towards Westlands, where he lived in an apartment, he volunteered more information about himself. He worked as an engineer with a local mobile phone company, he had broken up with his girlfriend and he eventually planned to relocate from the country. Again obvious things, but how many men volunteer such information to us?

When we got to his house rather than hurry me to the bed with his hands all over me, he let me sit on the couch, brought some whisky, put some music and cracked jokes, about himself, his work and us. And when we made love it was sensual. Him concerned about how I felt.

And so Sylvester picked me several times and treated me the same way. Naturally I became very fond of me, like falling in love. We never negotiated the fee he was to pay me; he paid what he wanted which was always slightly above the market rates. Perhaps even if he had decided not to pay me, I would have been okay. I actually thought he was falling for me too. Occasionally he called me during the day or night just to know how I was doing.

One morning, two months or so after meeting him, we were in his house and he couldn't locate his wallet so as to pay me. He searched for it everywhere, but still couldn't get it. Then he grabbed me abruptly, his face with an expression I had never seen before. “You prostitute! Give me my wallet or I kill you." I was surprised. I didn't have the wallet. He then slapped and insulted me. He searched my small handbag, made me undress; put his fingers inside me but still no wallet. Eventually he kicked me out. I cried. Not because he had hit me or refused to pay, but because I was in love with him. I had thought him different only to discover he was like all the rest.



79 comments:

  1. What would you have done if you were in his shoes at that particular moment??

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  2. Damn, that's a touching account.

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  3. This is indeed very touching.
    For once we read about love and it ends up in tragedy indeed.
    Thank you Sue

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  4. Am really sorry but I think in the end it would have still ended. Though not the way you would have liked to envision it. It feels very bad especially because you did not steal from him and there is no way of proving that...maybe till Judgment day.

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  5. "only to discover he was like all the rest" thats powerful sue. its also shitty. i feel for you. poor thing. Sylvester, Sylvester, woe unto to you Sylvester. its painful the only time we are reading about love, we discover it ended in tragedy for you sue. but then again this is a story about love not a story of love. a story about love is real, its painful, its human, it is full of tragedy. a story of love is in the fairy tales. in the movies, in the novels and in our fantasies. as always i love your artistry sue.

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  6. Im so sorry Sue,everyone deserves to be loved.I hope one day you will find someone who will love you flaws and all....like Richard Gere and Julia Roberts in the movie Pretty woman.

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  7. Damn man!Sylvester! Sylvester the good guy. Sylvester the engineer. Sylvester the good paying client. Sylvester the gentleman. FUCK YOU SYLVESTER. phew!. The eleventh rule Sylvester. Thats a powerful read as always sue.

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  8. Amazing read. Hope u put together and anthology of some sort!

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  9. Damn What do you expect from a guy called Sylvester when its all nakedly illustrated by Sylvester Bifwoli Wakoli! I cant believe you were falling for Bifwoli wakoli! So what happens if he came back again?

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  10. i wud have done the sem as Sylvester, Sue.... at one point u sed that all prostitutes want is money. So maybe Sylvester maybe thot that that u were takin advantage by his politeness and being a gentleman to the xtent of u stealing his wallet. nway, pole sana sue, unfortunately good things come 2 an end sooner than expected and bad stuff is there 2 stay. U are a veeeeery strooong woman Sue. I soo lurrrrvvv ur character!!

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  11. I love your writing,excelent..keep them coming.

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  12. oooh you poor thing. I was waiting for happily ever after. Not to worry though your man is stil being carved to perfection for you. Love the articles hungry for more.

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  13. any man paying 4 a piece of u is a fool, cuz u r lyk a piece of gum that has lost all its flava.

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  14. tushauriane_online@yahoo.comMarch 7, 2011 at 7:26 PM

    Sue today you touched something in me..... you had hope i empathised with you and felt just as bad when you discovered he is "like the rest" of them.

    Question, Sue, if Syl was treating you - a prostitute so gentlemanly, it makes you wonder what women want, want if they can drop such a gentleman????

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  15. Its going to happen again

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  16. ati he searched for the wallet in. your pussy?!! hawa engineers ni wapumbavu kabisa!!

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  17. That's a touching story. It really brings out the human side of a prostitute. I however wonder what the other ten commandments would look like??

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  18. He's like all the rest. That should be commandent #12 if it hasn't yet made it to top 10. Still... Fuck Sylvester.

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  19. I wonder why people find it necessary to post hurtful irrelevant comments. #ohwell Good luck,Sue. Be careful.

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  20. The bad thing about being a fiction writer like me is that you dont allow emotional missiles from a fellow writer shatter you...Sue. I like your ability to shatter the emotional wall of your citizen readers. Very commendable.

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  21. for someone who claims or thinks they are an expert in male psychology you acted way off...falling for a man who just broke up with his girlfriend and is clearly going psychotic. I mean, who treats prostitutes with such tenderness anyway *no offence meant* a man on the rebound can be the worst of all beasts...he expects you to be perfect and when his mind tells him you ain't...we all know what will happen. Well nice read all the same.

    Angaani

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  22. May I ask You this. And You are sure U didn't have the said wallet?

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  23. pole sana girl this is very deep , there is always a next time but i think you should have told him how you felt but because he didnt call to apologize later it just proves that he was not into you.

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  24. Sorry babe.. But you know the saying-never mix business with pleasure. Keep your head up though.. Every experience is a lesson learnt, right?

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  25. As much as i dont agree with your choice of career or survival skills as others may call it,i was deeply moved by your experience.Sex workers are human and i dont think such cruelty is necessary.Additionally the fact that you fell in love with the idiot proves that you are human and you guys have feelings,despite engaging in such risque activities.Anyway i love your articles.keep em coming

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  26. That was not right in whatever way you look at it. Why would he choose to insult you? But hope that was a lesson learn.

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  27. Kwani you did not have sedatives that day????poor gal....Now let me give you a piece of advice, always carry a spray in your bag...when a man akileta fujo, spray him in the eyes....that's what i do to my clients..

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  28. I usually write using my name and blog but today I chose to remain anonymous. You have touched such a sensitive topic because most of us women go through this. You meet a nice guy kumbe...

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  29. Sue me,just Sue me!

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  30. As much y'all will go all woishee up here, let us all cut the crap and be REAL! This lady just so recently unveiled to us that she has a KNIFE, SEDATIVE among other harmful effects. PLUS, she also openly admitted that she won't hesitate to STEAL from clients. However ubaya wa Kenyans ni selective Amnesia, so we 'conveniently' forget that Sue, just like any other member of her trade is CAPABLE of having stolen that wallet. EH Jameni!!!

    No wonder we have politicians stealing from us night and day and they drop one or two "we are being attacked" crap and we rally behind them!

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  31. sue the fiction writer, i saw from your facebook page that you like fiction.

    its all fiction guys.... and not bad at all!!

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  32. every relationship has its own strains brought about by the character and history of the parties involved.sadly,Sylvester gut feeling was influenced by this and he reacted to this.the nature of your relationship, did not allow for dialoque and subsequent make up and probably for the better as you could potentially have saved your self from being involved a maniac. google about the crossbow hunter in the UK and u will thank your lucky stars.

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  33. well, not surprising as beneath the exterior facade of defence, every human being(hopefully) reacts to kindness and gentleness.but again,the dynamics of your interaction with sylvester could not allow for a normal relationship, however symbiotic. the ugly head of mistrust was always hovering above your heads and in all fairness you have admitted to not being above stealing from clients.guess karma is a bitch.

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  34. FICTION. and you have captured our hears with it, not a bad idea, i think you were real you would not be scared to identiy your self, why are you scared?? i agree with writer and the annoynimous person above who said that your fake, and this fiction. give us your number i want to hear you and post your photo here if you are a real malaya

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  35. I think peeps who post with the Anonymous' tag and write shitty should get a life.great post ,sad story though.

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  36. these anonymous followers, aint there away of making sure contributers aint anonymous? they suck. you post mean derogatory comments, on the blog! nkt! scum!

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  37. sometimes the truth is stranger than fiction-- I dont understand why a lot of people go woishe... aint nothing woishe here considering the multiple standards sue has owned....

    on anonimity people go ahead and be anon..who cares? surely NOT SUE!

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  38. At one time when I was a young unpublished writer I used to spend time reading other people's works and wishing I could have done 'that'. I felt bad that a writer was better, and more creative than me, and so I would try to poke holes in his writing just to prove he or she was not the best or great.

    I feel the anonymous at March 9, 2011 7:30 AM is feeling the same kind of frustration . He sounds angry, and wishful.

    After some years wasted in hating I discovered writers are different. I could gain more if I concentrated on my work and believed in myself. The result is now a number of relatively well known published books.

    I don't know whether this blog is fiction or not, but what I know here is a great writer, with a unique style and a brilliant mind. I read drawing from the depths of the story.

    Once I did research which involved me spending much time with prostitutes. And each of them has her story. What Sue says here is her story which is really a small part of what happens with the prostitutes. If this is fiction then I admire the writer because she has achieved what many writers want to: writing fiction which is authentic. If Sue is not a prostitute then she must have a very good understanding of what happens in that world. If she is real, she is marvelous.

    I wouldn't spend time,feeling jealous or hating Sue, instead I enjoy the blog, like I would any good piece of art. Please whoever you are do continue writing. I am not sure I even want to know you.

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  39. wow,what a hard life you live!!!so when are you planning to quit?

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  40. i am just watching a documentary serious called ' diary of a call girl' it has many episodes just like sue's. you can watch it online on tv.com

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  41. I really dont know how pple understand things, it is true sue carries the weapons, nd can spray a client and even steal from them, thank you haters for reading that part, but in this text sue sayin she truly didnt have the wallet, she was feelin this guy nd thus she was hurt when he reacted the way he did, because she didnt have it, infact she said she never discussed money with him nd wuldnt mind if he dint pay, am sure if this person sly later found his wallet, he must have felt very sory nd guilty

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  42. Sylvester was a man (who felt) scorned. So sad.

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  43. hell hath no fury,nor heaven a rage like love to hatred turned, a woman scorned or a man parted with his wallet.

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  44. Why is everyone about sue revealing herself? I think she deserves her privacy as long as you are reading keep reading or NOT...she will still write!!!!

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  45. We first need to know and understand the history of prostitution from biblical times to present day. That way we get to appreaciate why Sue is a malaya.

    Mwarang'ethe of Kumekucha blogspot

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  46. sue no longer replies on the comments, we need to hear from you and also some of these anonymous bastards need to put in their place, and sue does it best. i dont think sue is here to get approval on her way of life, so even if you call her a chewed gum, the people who dont give a damn about what she does as long as she gives us a good read we shall continue reading it, and dont need to know her identity, or whether its fiction of not. Anonymous 2.58 pm, 9th, i totally agree with you.

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  47. annonymous martch 9th at 5 pm: i wanted to share with you a story of Bell de jour. Bell was an annoymous for years and published her diaries( in many episodes)with become best sellers..... i believe sue is trying to do what bell did. she might never reveal herself, it is too early, she needs to create thirst for her blogs, perhaps until she has a million readers??


    Finally the anonymous sex blogger from Diary of a London Call Girl comes clean to The Sunday Times. She's Dr Brooke Magnanti..... times online

    Meet Belle de Jour, the anonymous blogger and former prostitute whose explicit, funny, articulate, eye-popping online Diary of a London Call Girl has fascinated millions of readers worldwide. Here she is: Belle, the famous tart, whose books became runaway bestsellers, who was played on screen by Billie Piper in the television series based on them, whose brand is instantly recognisable to anyone who uses the internet or bookshops and who has stirred up a considerable amount of controversy through her writing-as-a-whore career, not least because she has always refused to condemn prostitution as being necessarily bad or sad: our very own second-wave Happy Hooker.

    Speculation about the author’s identity has been rife for six long years...... read about bell de jour on times online....


    i guess sue will be the kenyan bell de jour....

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  48. Sue is fiction, personally I find no news in what she says, there are kawa things happening in that “world”, we are shocked yes but its cos its stuff you hear about but never get it from the horses mouth, I think sue is doing her research well. Kudos..am waiting for her to talk about
    Men who tear cds so that they can infect you.
    Men who will fuck you and drive you to a cop station and lie that you have stolen from them, all this so as not to pay
    You still haven’t talked about home based fucking, surely even if u stayed in a dungeon, there are men who care less and would want to screw you at your place
    Rape cases among hookers is common, am still waiting.
    Am not a prostitute yet I know these things, so Sue is a businesswoman just like any other…I hope she isn’t conning us though

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  49. I just didn't av time to think str8 'Sue'.
    I apologise 4 that harsh treatment.

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  50. I started reading your blog just a day ago and now it's bookmarked and I cannot get enough. Please write more regularly, this is becoming an addiction. I can't go through the older posts fast enough. wow, just love it. Real or fiction, ni tamu tu sana. I'm hooked like a hooker - forgive the pun.

    As for the Sylvester jamaa, don't care what anyone says, it's just unforgivable for a man to hit a woman, regardless of what or who she is. He was a just a punk-ass. I think most Kenyan men are, that's why there are so many cases of domestic violence. It's a pity but true and they can raise their arms in protest but they'd rather hit women than face a real man and fight any day. sissies.

    Above @ the Slyvester-wannabe dude above me - hahaha, seriously dude?

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  51. love your work sue. keep it up. as for the Sylvester dude. not all of us are the same. some see past the prostitute and see the oman behind them

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  52. Why does it matter whether this is her life experience or fiction? Or an amalgamation of the experiences of different people?

    And for those who want more graphic stories...there are many such story websites all over the web. Its harder to write a story that elicits emotional responses from the readers, than it is to simply write about sex.

    Sue, don't change a thing.

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  53. fiction! eti a dude picks up a whore kisha romances her with whiskey before he "makes love to her" Bwahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha kisha an engineer with a local mobile phone comapny driving a subaru? its fiction or even better "Fucktion"

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  54. hahahahaha tha wat u get for stealin u thievin hoe n ujus provd to the whole wrld that ur both a thief and a cheap hoe nd ur lcky u gt away wit it if twas me id have fucked u with that whsky bottle till u vomit out that wallet u worthless bitch then id take u strait to the cells fr a nyc gdnyt sleep whch am sre evryone wld agree wit me i hop i neva meet a hoe cald sue in karen fr her own safety nd as fr u worthless excuse of a woman u disgust me u bitch

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  55. @bingi....u are one stupid person...very stupid

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  56. Never again will i ever hit a woman.I have just apologized to my former with for all the fights we had in our marriage. Thanks sue for making me realize it was wrong, all i have given before was justification just like Sylvester did.

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  57. It's an unfortunate reality in your profession, Sue, that no matter how good a relationship you have with a client, if something goes wrong, you'll be blamed for it because you are a prostitute.

    It frustrates me that people assume prostitutes cannot modify ends-seeking behavior like stealing if they chose. If you put effort into a relationship- no matter who its with- the other person will respect you and not take advantage of you (at least that is my hope for humanity). You are a prostitute, but you deserved more trust in that situation.

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  58. fuction? haahahahhahahah

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  59. Mmmh ...fact or fiction your good with the pen. Even the haters take time off to post now thats power.

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  60. @paka, wewe ni hater, makende ya farasi

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  61. I don't think the Sylvester who has apologized here is the real one.


    A sad ending to this story.

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  62. gal, i appreciate ua writing. It tells a lot.

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  63. yeah hell has no fury like a man who is with a prostitute and cant see his wallet.

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  64. The irony of anonymous people asking Sue to reveal her identity. The insults directed to her on this post have no difference with what Sylvester does to her. Maturity as displayed by Sue's style of writing should be adopted by readers both in their comments and lifestyle.

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  65. Am sorry that he hit but at the end of the day you yourself have admitted that prostitution goes hand in hand with thievery. I hate that he hit you but in the same situation you would have been my first suspect.

    Question: Has he ever contacted you again or have you seen him again?

    I hope he found his wallet and felt contrite.This job of yours is dangerous and am sure you are fully aware of that. Being the victim of violence is bound to happen that is fact.

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  66. I have just stumbled on this blog from i dont know where. I have been through quite some very tough times lately times lately so I am a little familiar with being in the dark. It makes Excellent reading,which makes it difficult to believe the blog is by someone in the courtesy industry. Times get hard, and people have to do what they have to do to live to fight for the next day, but if the writing here is anything to go by, from the coherence of the writing it seems to me that you are in a good position to craft a way out of the industry in a reasonable time. I am just wondering if you are working on this. About a client with whom it ends up in a happy ending, unfortunately, in the coutersy industry, the kind of people you encounter are more of Gary Leon Ridgway,Steve Wright and Robert Shulman than the kind that love somebody. Nice reading, sorry for your encounter and all the best.

    little.hiti@live.com

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  67. very sad in deed. But I think sylvester was out to get some sort of emotional comfort and probably forget the hurt he had been subjected to as a result of his break up. The last thing he needed was the slightest provocation from any one else who had come to be close to him. It is unfortunate that you were on the receiving end for a mistake that you had not done but who said life is fair. Just pray that one day you will meet a better guy..like me..haha!

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