Monday, April 18, 2011

Episode 23: Are You Satisfied ?


At the face of all I need from a client is money. The cash lifts my spirits, but leaves me with some sort of emptiness when not coupled with a sense of satisfaction. The contentment I speak of is both sexual and psychological. I am used to living without the sexual pleasure. Sometimes despite giving my all sex feels like any usual physical exercise say walking. There is no thrill or a hint of pleasure. Initially the sex frustration used to disturb me. I remember in my earlier days on the street how I almost got depressed after sleeping with several men and not getting tickled the way I expected. With time I overcame the feeling. I realized in the process of making the psychological leap to prostitution, I had lost something, that which previously used to make me passionate and crazy about sex. Still this does not mean there are no moments when I enjoy sex. There are ecstatic and orgasmic instants. However I seem to have lost control of when and how I experience sexual bliss. My P seems to have charted its own course about this.

Then there is the issue of the psychological fulfillment after a session with a man .When I know I have given a man what he came to look for in me I get a big  moral and ego boost . A delight that makes me think I am still relevant on the streets. There are men, like I pointed out earlier, who come for the physical and others  the spiritual. And it is easy to know what a man is after. The duration between him picking me and getting to bed gives the clues; its in the talk, the driving and his eyes. The way he acts during the actual sex also hints at what he is seeking. Men who thrust as if they are trying to get something other than their semen out are not in for the physical pleasure alone.

The crucial point for me is after the sex. I see fulfillment, guilt, satisfaction, bliss, delight, disappointment, grief  among other things in the eyes of men. When a man requests to hug me after a session I feel good. When a man curses or says that was good I know he got what he wanted. A man who throws money at me rather than handing it over to me didn't get what he wanted. There are all these small clues. Sometimes I will be courteous enough to ask a man whether he is happy with the service or not. But such a question rarely generates a honest answer.

When I have not satisfied a man I feel like I am losing my shine, which actually I might be. I will carelessly spend most of the cash I get from such a man. I will try, more than necessary, to prove myself to my next client, sometimes making mistakes in the process and losing whatever others think is left of my dignity.

42 comments:

  1. This is the first time that I'm commenting here though I read all your posts. I love the way you write and can't wait until you start releasing podcasts. Random question, do you have gigalos on the street?

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  2. Make them longer! And no, I don't mean the sessions but the Episodes, it loses it captivating nature the shorter they come! Though that too can be true!

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  3. Can you also dedicate an episode which just desrcide forced sex that you normally get from kanjos, police and campus students????

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  4. i see all these guys(your followers)love hookers as much as the dont pretend not to..quit the streets bitch,b4 ur pussy runs dry.....save some pussy juice 4 ur husband whom u may have

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  5. do you have a sister....and how would you feel if you found out she was doing the same thing as you? and who is the youngest person that has ever approached you for your services? i did my research on domestic violence,sometime back....has anyone ever hit you or forced themselves on you....

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  6. "When I have not satisfied a man I feel like I am losing my shine, which actually I might be".
    wen u start feeling in wat a matter this statement means then i guess it the highest moment in ur life u move on en get off the streets. if u don now wen u still can en maybe go out there en even get married or start ur family then the streets might get rid if you somehow.

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  7. I find your writing rather entertaining and your insights very intriguing. So, do you ever fantasize about a "Pretty Woman" (Richard Gere, Julia Roberts) type of scenario? What would your idea fantasy look like?

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  8. .,LET THIS GIRL EXPRESS HERSELF AND FOR THOSE WHO ARE CRITICIZING HER WHY THE FUCK DID YOU JOIN HER BLOG...GO ON LADY UR STOROS MAKE MA DAY

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  9. Sue as always , a big fan, and these juvenile clowns, trying to advise you on life should be shot in the kidneys. KEEP WRITING. CHEERS!

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  10. It is a pleasure to read your blog and I appreciate that you enjoy satisfying your customers. Keep up the good work.

    Kind Regards from Henri Bik

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  11. I like your perception of things and the way you craft your sentences. While I may not applaud your profession, I definitely applaud your writing. Keep up.

    Patrick

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  12. Interesting, it is alway hard question for most women, i have a boyfriend and i always ask my self the same questions!! did i satisfy him and did he satisfy me? The P, doesnt work or me alone, i need someone to go down there and exite my clit...it got to be rubbed and ticked for a couple of minutes - mostly ten minutes!! ... my orgasm comes after my clit is super erect and horny..then you get this vaccum in your Pussy,that feeling is so wanting,hot and good that is the only tiime i want a dick in there. otherwise it doesnt work for me.

    Sue, you need a boyfriend who doesnt know your a whore.get a guy who will please you my dear, satisfaction is both ways. do your clients ever ask you if you are satisfied? i dont think so. there not there to please you are they.... get someone of your own, your missing something special!!! there are days my boyfriend will just give me oral until i come without even penetration. thats real passion for someone.

    all the best.

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  13. Tii hii! Guys let Sue write and lay off the bitch/pussy epithets... sue, write on. Great stuff, very insightful

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  14. mbesha2002(at)yahoo(dot)comApril 19, 2011 at 9:01 PM

    Sue, Get the movie called Client 9 there is a bit about prostitution and men (powerful men) namely Eliot Spitzer-the AG of NY that resigned due to prostitution. Maybe you can explain to us.... the "spiritual side".

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  15. Hmmm, this is confusing: why should a prostitute give a damn what a guy gets out of having sex with her? If her gets his orgasm, and she gets her money, where is the problem there? A trick is not a boyfriend.

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  16. This is the first post that I read that makes me think Sue is a guy. Now I'm really thinking Sue is a guy, and pulling all our pissers. Hmm. Only a guy would be this weak-minded and sappy about a transactional fvck. A strong woman who as been on the street shouldn't really care whether a jamaa liked his dish or not. Hmm. Sue or Sam? Is this a gay guy imagining what it would be like to be wanted by straight men? Hmm. Wishing he was pretty and sexy enough to work K-Street, but alas, has a cock and would likely be killed if he tried? Hmm.

    I don't have the silly doubts others have... but I do doubt your gender. I mean, what kinda of working girl calls her pussy "P"? Working girls I know are proud of their Pussy. It's like a soldier's rifle. A policeman's gun. It's the powerful weapon that lays low even the most prideful man... the Super, Ultra, Mega pussy... I could only imaging a timid gay man calling it "P".

    Correct Anonymister if he's wrong.

    Anonymister

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  17. Now if Sue was indeed a guy, and Sue was on the street, and I was so drunk-up-off-my-ass that I didn't notice Sue's cock before I took her back to the room, and the Sarova concierge and desk staff didn't have the decency to ask my why I was holding hands with a queer man, grinning, and strolling up to my room, KNOWING how many of their fine white linens I burn through during my stays- If all those evil, dark stars aligned... and I have already been kissing and groping this dude Sue, and even get so far as to get Sue into a compromising position, but she's tucked and tied so well that I don't notice her... him... her manhood until I flip her... him over and offer a towel and the shower, would the greater evil be to call a mob into the hotel lobby, which would add considerable delay to these blog entries, or would the greater evil be to just swallow my pride, pay the dude, and avoid the mirror for the rest of my days?

    This is all IF Sue was a guy.

    Anonymister

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  18. can we be friends?
    N its nt about the sex..

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  19. Twats know hygiene? If they cannot use the cash they rob to shave their pussies and replace torn panties and wash their stinking pussies and anyone even dream to enter those dirty holes without CD.
    Every brothel in Ethiopia is stocked with Vinegar or Gin to cleanse pussy. But not here in Nairobi.

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  20. Unless you are very sick in the head, unless the only sex you have ever known is that of a harlot, there is no satisfaction. Twats nerves died ages ago, in her head you waste her time, the earlier you get out she get another client or she sleep the better.

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  21. to succeed in building ths brand we have to xplore the unknown values that result in the much desired mutual satisfaction, hence, how can the less obvious motives of clients be determined!

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  22. its interesting to note that almost all of us as humans struggle with the ages old question of "did deliver? or did i disappoint?" As always sue your unique perspective of this life and of the street keeps me wetting for more articles from you. Cant wait to listen to those famed pod-casts!!!!!

    love your blog gal.

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  24. It's nice to see someone in your line of work out there who actually gives a damn about pleasing her clients and not just getting the cash and getting rid of him ASAP. I think most men have paid for sex at one time or another in their lives; even I did it in my youth. The main reason I stopped is because the transactions were always just that-- business transactions devoid of any sort of humanity. Men need to feel liked and wanted too, not just offered a quick piece of ass to "pump and dump" in. Bravo for your refreshing "work ethic!"

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  25. im writing this while still doubtful of whether i should or why im on this blog anyway but the smiles you've put on my face after stumbling into your blog n reading every article just needs an applauding.crazy but lovely.

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  26. The customer is King-No pun intended.

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  27. Anonymister sez brett @April 20, 2011 8:09 PM hasn't stopped paying to make a deposit, he just got a clande and now he feels better about himself, or he pulls his pud to a website. Come on Brett (literally), support free enterprise!

    Anonymister

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  28. Sue, I asked a while back what you mean by 'spiritual reasons' for having sex, no answer yet. Please do tell.

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  29. Thank you for writing about a difficult subject without going gutter...That's an art. One night out at the club, I saw a prostitute climb into a mzungu john's car through the passenger window. Didn't know the backstory but it certainly changed my until-that-moment very conservative views on prostitution. Bizzarely, instead of 'dehumanising', the two minute incident made prostitutes 'human' for me. I salute you.

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  31. I been meaning to notify you, if you dont already know... that another whore copied this and is writing on www.nairobinights.com

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  32. I been meaning to notify you, if you dont already know... that another whore copied this and is writing on www.nairobinights.com

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  33. Who cares whether Sue is a man or woman. All i need are the articles for me to read. Even proffessional thugs care not to hurt the client so that next time they come again, even when you are being hung, they care that you die less painfully. Same applies to proffessional whores they know a satisfied client always comes back.

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  34. I have read nairobinights.com........i think this blog is more genuine.

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  35. Do you intend this to be your full time career? How much money do you make in a month.........return on investment!!

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  36. Hey sue, i like the frankness in this blog. You haven't gone on about your anal escapeds??

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